It is March already?!!

We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us. - E. M. Forester

It has been quite awhile since I have posted last. Lots going on with all the kids, school and a new job.

The last two months have been some of the hardest times I have had to deal with in awhile. My niece is really struggling right now. We had to hospitalize her, and I spend much of my week’s b/t therapists and psychiatrists for her. My nephew has been non-stop sick, and I think I have had him at the doctor almost every week! It has taken a toll on all of us.

I really thought my life was going one direction, and I am trying to patiently understand what the Lord is trying to direct me to do now. I do know that one fire that has been ignited is the attitude I have towards our current child welfare system. Not enough is being done. Kids are dying everyday. That is unacceptable. Once we get through this season I am bound and determined to push for legislation changes.

I totaled my van almost a month ago. I have never been so scared in my life. I literally saw my life flash before my eyes. I had the younger two with me, and all I could think of when I saw that we were going to hit the telephone pole, was dear God please let me take all the impact, and not the kids. And sure enough, I did! I was pinned in my van for what seems like forever. The kids didn’t have one scratch! Thank the Lord up above.

That night I thought to myself how quickly your life can change in an instant again. I asked myself, if I hadn’t made it, have I said and done all the things I should have or could have before I leave this earth? Does all this small stuff really matter in the grander scheme of things?

I am trying to focus on the road ahead, and His way for my life. I have been sidetracked with so much going on in the last few months that I feel detached b/c I stopped cultivating my relationship with Him daily. Time to reassess and get back on track!